From "On The Road"

Across this plateau the big manufacturing town of Monterrey sent smoke to the blue skies with their enormous Gulf clouds written across the bowl of day like fleece. Entering Monterrey was like entering Detroit, among great long wall of factories, except for the burros that sunned in the grass before them and the sight of thick city adobe neighborhoods with thousands of shifty hipsters hanging around doorways and whores looking out of windows and strange shops that might have sold anything and narrow sidewalks crowded with Hongkong-like humanity.

I need you so much closer

Goodbye.
I haven't said that, nor will I ever.
There is no need to end something so raw.
My heart tugs to leave you and the memories under the covers in my mind.
The for sale sign is just a formality,
And yet it stabs the bank of my memories.
Your home and the recollection of life past will be wrapped up inside me,
The time will come to release. Not now, though.


Romantic your life was.
It still dances down Yale Avenue, and inside the Village Grill where we shared many a milkshake and cheeseburgers long ago.
Summers when we both could walk around the block and stop to play in the sandlot.
How simply beautiful the dreams of others were possessed within you
and the home you brought to life.
Pretty could never sum up your love, face or life.

I want what you had. I don't want it now in present day,
but in the exact form when you left your skates in his car,
exactly when you took your first breathe of married life,
and when you cried in the kitchen holding me.

You could have chosen differently.
You could have been dancing with Fred or laughing with Clark. But, what good would that do when you lived out the incredibly satisfying life you were given.
No, all was right and all was as is should have been.

I was there mostly all the time.
I wanted to give you my sight, and share with you my travels of the grand world.
You lived the beautiful life. I can only imagine.
I have my sight to see and reflect on all that you have been submerged in.
No sight was alloted to you,
For you were the beauty I saw.

You'll never know how much I adore you.
Maybe you did.
But I want you to know I love you,
You're safe now.